2009

1. What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?
Oh my...well...hahaha...that's something that only my best buds know about. ;)

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
actually I did! I haven't drank coffee or soda in almost a year now. WOO-HOO! I'm planning on leaving the good ol' bread next year, but we'll see.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
nope

4. Did anyone close to you die?
family members died, but i wasn't really close to them. still sad though.

5. What countries did you visit?
none =P

6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
a relationship

7. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory and why?
There are sooo many! but I guess one of the most important ones are; 6/24/09, 06/06/09, 08/31/09, 09/24/09, 10/25/09, 11/02/09, 11/09/09, and finally 12/09/09. P.S. you know you're close to me if you know what more than three of these dates mean to me. :)

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I guess the fact that I graduated from high school and that I ended my first semester of college with 3.6 GPA! :)

9. What was your biggest failure?
The whole pre-graduation drama. =/

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
none..THANK GOD!

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Buffy The Vampire Slayers seasons 1-5! hahaha Plus a whole bunch of dvds that I bought when I used to "work."

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
My dad's. He has changes sooo much! I am so proud of him. :)

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
a couple of people close to me, but I'm over it... I think.

14. Where did most of your money go?
food, bus pass, dvds, cds, and books.

15. What did you really, really, really get excited about?
A whole bunch of concerts and signings which I didn't even end up going to, my dates with D, and the whole college scene. :)

16. What song/s will always remind you of 2009?
3 by Britney, Mi Delirio by Anahi, Bad Romance by Lady Gaga, and Fairytale by Sara Bareilles. :)

17. Compared to this time last year are you:
Happier? somewhat
Thinner? hell to the no
Richer? hell to the no


18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
spending time with my best buds...I just love it when we get together! :)

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
moping

20. How did you spend Christmas?
Snuggled in bed reading Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, watching season 4 of Buffy the Vampire Slayer, and eating tamales..lol

21. How will you be spending new years?
don't know yet actually.

22. Did you fall in love in 2009?
I developed a new crush.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Grey's Anatomy, Ugly Betty, and now Modern Family. :)

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
hate is a very strong feeling which I tend to avoid at all cost and so far have succeeded.

26. What was the best book you read?
There were quite a lot, but the one that made me all bubly inside and excited to read was Alex Sanchez's new novel Bait because he is my all-time favorite author! :)

27. What was your biggest musical discovery?
I don't know about "discovery" but, I am developing an unhealthy obsession with Wizard Wrock music (Harry-Potter-based rock bands). :)

28. What did you want and you got?
My first kiss. :)

29. What did you want and not get?
A relationship. =/

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
The Lake House... It is actually from 2004, but I didn't see it until this year and I LOVED it! It is now one of my fave movies. :)

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old did you turn?.
I spent it at school and home and I turned 19.


32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
If I would had finally experienced the meaning of "true love"...romantic-wise.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
Fashion-missing! lol Although I LOOOVE the fashion industry, I am not very "fashionable" myself. I am more about comfort and covering up. lol

34. What kept you sane?
my close friends, music, and writing.

35. Which celebrity did you fancy the most?
I have developed a lot of new celebrity crushes this past year, but I don't want to sound pathetic and mention them here. lol

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
proposition h8

37. Who did you miss?
JM and my grandma. I still do. :(

38. Who was the best new person you met?
I met TONS of new best persons who are all pretty awesome, but I guess the one that I became more close to is my favorite lesbian Ceci. That little chick has grown in my heart...Love ya Ceci! :)

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:
Miracles do exist! I witnessed two of them this year which were pretty fucking amazing! Whenever you guys are going through crappy situations, pray and surround yourselves with positive people who love you and you will do fine. I LOVE God and my friends. :)

40. Quote or Song Lyric that sums up your year:
"Be strong. Live honorably and with dignity. When you don't think you can, hold on."
-James Frey

Misery

It seems as though I am doomed to be miserable, unhappy, and depressed for the rest of my life. Just when things were starting to look up for me, a sudden nightmare over-clouds my happiness. As I am writing this, I feel a huge whole in my stomach. I am fighting to keep the tears from pouring out of me. Me, out of all people, I am forced to be strong when all I want is for the earth to open up and eat me. I thought I had finally found the true meaning of happiness, but destiny decided to play one of it's most cruel and hurtful jokes on me. As I am here in my room trying to let out this pain in some way, my dad is at a jail cell probably cold, hungry, sick... terrified. I am sick and tired of this fucken nightmare some like to call life. I am tired of all this bullshit, of all the pain, the hurt. I wish I could vanish from the phase of the Earth. I don't know what to do and the not knowing is what it is fucken killing me.

Happy Coming Out Day...

HAPPY...indeed! I just did one of the most terrifying things a gay man could ever do. I just came out to my nonapproachable father, BUT... He was OKAY with it!!! It feels as if I just let go of a sack of bricks that I was carrying on my shoulders. It feels AMAZING, AWESOME, GREAT... There are not enough words in the English Language to describe this feeling. I Love my parents. I feel like the luckiest man alive.

HAPPY COMING OUT DAY EVERYONE!

Love, José D. :)

Drastic Change.

I know I don't usually post, but let's be honest... it's not like anyone cares! So with that said, let's move on. I decided to start a blog for three reasons:

1. Some of my favorite internet celebrities and authors were blogging and so I wanted a place to come and be able to have all of the links for my fave bloggers in one place.

2. Like my journal, I find blogging to be quite therapeutic. It's very relaxing, and it just feels right to have a place where you can let out all of your thoughts and ideas.

3. I knew for a fact that nobody that I know IRL was going to read my blog and so I was safe to spill my beans. :)

Anyway, I'm just currently... satisfied with my life, I guess you can call it. I'm almost done with my second week of college. I LOVE my school... GO CUBS! And I'm just glad to have my life back because I have to say that July and August of 2009 were the most long and boring months of my life! Fall is my favorite season of the year and so that is another exciting thing coming up in my life. New seasons of my favorite shows, perfect weather, awesome fashion, and AWESOMENESS all around! So... I guess I'll just wrap it up here.

Peace, Love, and Life. :)

I finished a chapter, the rest is still unwritten...

Today I have placed the final dot in one of the chapters in my life. High School is finally over! No more waking up at 5:30 a.m., taking a shower, getting ready, listening to Ryan Seacrest's On Air radio show, and heading out the door at 7:00 a.m. to walk into John C Fremont High's campus.No more laughters in Advisory caused by the stupid jokes made by Alejandra. No more "do you need anything?" for my service class with Mr. Holmes. No more arguing with Betty during second period at the library. No more slacking off in Mr. Hsieh's English Lit class. No more laughters from Ms. Lucindo caused again by the combination of Alejandra's stupidity and my stupidity. No more hanging out at "our spot" during lunch with all of the girls. No more feeling uncomfortable in Mr. Edwards' class. No more ditching Ms. Ikediashi's art class with Veronica at the Library. No more hanging out with carina after school. No more drama. No more fremont. No more High School.

An Introduction...

It's quite funny how some of us use the cybernetic world to escape from the real world. Here I am, spilling my guts out. Trying to escape reality...pretending people care about what I have to say. There are only 21 days left of high school. I am terrified of the "real world". I don't even want to think about it anymore.